Our Stories - Sam's Sex Change Nightmare
The text below was sent to us by one of our readers. He is a Female to Male (FtM) transexual who has gone through several unsuccesful surgeries and desperately needs our help. Please contact HOMAN LA if you could offer any sort of assistance to him.
The text is in Farsi. An English translation will be provided shorty.
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Ba salam va khaste nabashid.
Man Sam hastam va az Soued minevisam. Mikhaham mokhtasari az dorane kodaki ta be alan ra barayetan sharh bedam, omid ast ke dar jahate komak be hamnoanam mosmeresamr bashad.
Dar khanevadeyi motevasset bedonya amadam ke kamelan mard salar bood; az haman kodaki morede azar va shekanjeye baradaram va pedaram gharar migereftam. Man hatta ta senne 19 salegi morede shekanjehaye shadide roohi va jesmi gharar migereftam.
Pas az oan tavanestam esteghlalam ra peyda konam va kamtar shekanje shavam. Dar sale 1998 be Turkiye azimat kardam va dar UN panahande shodam, sepas dar sale 2001/12/13 be keshvare soued ferestade shodam .
Az zamane vorodam talash baraye bargharariye ertebaat ba pezeshkan nemoodam, ta inke dar yeki az shahrha be name Lindköping be doktori be name poroffosor Gunnar Keratz molaghat kardam.
Dar shahri ke zendegi mikardam tavasote yek dr-e dandanpezeshk va yek pesare afghani morede zarboshatm gharar gereftam amma be dalile moshkelam tavanaiye defaa nadashtam, amma dar in miyan polis ham hich komaki be man nakard, va hamin amr baes bimariye roohiy man shod.
Be hamin khater ba hezaran moshkel ranvaneye Stockholm shodam va dar inja be bimarestane Huddinge dar ghesmate transsha moarrefi shodam. Yeki az roozha ke yeki az hamkhanehayam barkhorde badi ba man karde bood va man natavaneste bodam baz az khodam defae konam, narahat va naomid be bimarestan rafatam ba tavajjoh be inke maha be nobate man mande bood amma Dr Stig Anderson mara did va barayam be tore orjans tartibe amale jarrahi dar bimarestane Karolinska ra dad.
Avvale mah be didane Dr Johan Rinder raftam va barayam nahveye jarrahi ra tozih dad, amma hichvaght anharfa be haghighat naresid. Dar 2004/05/15 mara jarrahi kard va bad az amal man dochare bimariye roohi shodam va be nazde oo raftam va barayam goft ke faghat ye amale digar takmil konande ast. Leza tasmim gereft bad az 12 mah mano amal kone ke oon ham bad be 9 mah taghlil yaft (amma ba esrare man).
Dr be man goft 6mahe digar amal edame payda mikoneh, amma dar zarfe 4mah mano baz amal kard dar tarikhe2004/10/01. Dar in rooz man khonriziye dakheli kardam va dar haman rooz baz morede amale jarrahi gharar gereftam. Bad az amal az nahiyey dast va shane ye samte chap dochare dardhaye shide shodam ke hanooz ham az an khalas nashodeam. Pas az an digar nakhastam oo ra molaghat konam va az DR Stig khasatm ke mara nazde poroffosor befrestad .
Oo vaghti barayam tartib dad va dar novambre haman saal oo ra didam va nahveye amal ra baram sharh dada. Goft agar yekbar bashad jaye zakhm khaham dasht agar 2bar bashad dore sine va jaye zakhm nakhaham dasht.
Man niz 2bar ra ghabool kardam ta inke dar 2006/04/13 ba ferestadane namehey moteaddede bakhsh ravanpezeshki man morede amal gharar gereftam, vali hich yek az harfhaye oo haghighat nadasht va doroghi mahz bood, man dar vaghe vasileye yadgiriye oo va digaran boodam. Aanha bejaye dar avardane sine ke yek amale zibayii ast man ra be onvane yek mariz ke saratane sine darad amal kardand!
6rooz bad az amal man zakhmhayam ra be ellate khonrizi baz kardam va pas az didane anaha be shekle divaneha dar amadam va be bimarestan montaghel shodam ,bad az chand shab mara bastari kardan va 5rooz dar anja be tore daem bodam, amma alan ham tahte nazar mibasham va roozi 1ya 2bar ba man goftogoo mikonand ravanpezeshka.
Baraye bare 3vom man khonrizi kardam va vaghti be bimarestan raftam jarrahah az ghabole man sar baz zadan va mara ba nooii polis az anja biroon andakhtan va man be anha goftam agar inja be man komak nashavad, koja bayad beshavad???
amma mano biroon kardan va hala man 33rooze ke dard mikesham, inghad poste badanam keshide shode ke bayad dastahayam ra dar baghal gerefte bekhabam ya be sorate nimkhiz bekhabam .
Be pahlooha abadan nemitavanam bekhabam - lebashayam ra be sakhti tan mikonam va ba moshkel dar miavaram - ghodrate boland kardne chizi ra nadaram - nemitavanam dastam ra deraz konam be jayi vachizi bardaram ......az shoma khahesh mikonam be man komak konid. Mara az daste in jalladan nejat dahid, chandbare digar bayad amal shavam ta betavanam ye sineye mosattah dashte basham ??
Bedoone dard va keshesh poost??
Man nagoftehaye ziyadi daram ke fek mikonam az hoseleye shoma kharej bashad ke bekhanid. Amma az tamame kasani ke in name ra mikhanand mikham, faghat be man negah nakonid... be ye ayandeye tire va tar fek konid ke dar entezare transshast.
khahesh mikonam javabe mara bedahid.
sepasgozaram
sam 20060516
Stockholm
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